transparent secrets

she died today
for a couple of hours
she gave birth to her tears
hot salted tears.
she dived her hair unto hot water
the hot drops of water emerged with her tears
so the pain would be easier to bear.
she thought of you today
it hurts
as always
she ate a piece of tomato
weird, it felt like a tomato
...
she lost her temper, screamed silently
she yelled, shouted and spoke to you
without uttering a single word.
the hollers in her mind violently consulved her
and she's not anymore.
she invented a virtual reality
to escape a bitter real dream
she felt like an empty swing rocked back and forth in the wind.
she failed being a human being
as a seed of choler is growing smoothly inside her spirit
the bursts of her forlornnesses were about to detonate
but something changed
suddenly
she remembered her weakness towards his eyes
a sea breeze invaded her frozen heart
and she fell again.
the electric current in her dead body moved again
to remind her that she's
Alive.
i saw her today
she was staring at me in the mirror
i was stunned to see how much she looks like me
i never knew that me was like her
like this.
now what ?